sweet nothingness

May Your Soul Rest In Peace “Jabir El Khair”

2007-01-15T22:43:00.000+03:00

A year ago Kuwait suffered one of its greatest losses… A heart like no other… A person no word

can do him justice… Kuwait has reached its glory with him… يا أكبر فرحة مرت بعمر الكويت … you’re in our hearts and always will be…

اللهم اغفر له وارحمه ..وعافه واعف عنه .. وأكرم نزله .. ووسع مدخله.. واغسله بالماء والثلج والبرد.. ونقه من الذنوب والخطايا كما

ينقى الثوب الأبيض من الدنس .. اللهم ابدله داراً خيراً من داره .. وأهلاً خيراً من أهله .. وارزقه الحور العين في جناتك جنات النعيم .. آمين .. اللهم اجعل قبره روضة من رياض الجنة . ولا تجعلها حفرة من حفر النيران .. اللهم يا حنان .. يا منان .. يا عظيم .. يا سلطان .. أسألك بكل اسمائك الحسنى , وصفاتك العلى .. أن تغفر للشيخ جابر ما سلف .. وأن تثبته عند السؤال .. اللهم يا رب العرش العظيم .. ارحمه برحمتك الواسعة .. وارزقه مرافقة نبيك محمد صلى الله عليه وسلم .. واجزه خير الجزاء على ما قدم من حسنات .. وتجاوز عن السيئات .. يا رب السماوات .. آمين .. اللهم ألهمنا الصبر .. لا حول ولا قوة إلا بالله .. إنا لله وإنا إليه راجعون ...

والحمد لله وحده و الصلاة و السلام على رسول الله و آله و صحبه أجمعين

Grieving is Missing You

2006-11-28T11:46:00.000+03:00

I never knew what grieving was until I lost you

Losing you was losing my life

Then…I never knew you were gone

But you said farewell in your own way

Waking up I knew you weren’t alright

I felt it deep down in my heart

Something’s wrong…

Suddenly…missing you was overwhelming

Could it be?!.... Will it ever?!

Oh silly me of course not…

Saying it with tearful eyes

You and death will never get along

I always thought so

I knew eternity is only to Allah

But of all creatures I saw you differently

I didn’t want to believe

I just don’t want to believes

They told me… it was true *a lump forms in my throat*

No! Liars…liars

And they still are

I’m hearing nothing about it

And never will

I knew there was something wrong *crying*

That night I was alone… I lived alone

But that night was different

It felt lonely…I felt abandoned

Forlorn spirit is all I can feel

Life was a dreary path

I lived in tears…slept in tears…woke up in tears

My surrounds seemed desolated

I felt alone in the world

Wandering crowded places felt empty…lonely

I feel like the walking-dead

I feel that I’ve lost my soul

Numb in all that I had to do

Then back to where I want to be

Curled on the sofa… staring into space

Hugging your picture to my heart

Sobbing like a four-year- old

I’d cry my heart out

Trying to remember your last words

As usual…before I travel I’d hug you

I’d feel the lump and choke

I’d struggle not to cry

I’d fight my tears back

But I’d get tearful

I’d see your tears

And my tears would drip

I try to distract you with a big smile

I’d promise to call when I arrive

I’d ask you to take care

*But had I ever told you that I love you?*

I’d go out the door after peeking a couple last glances

Then seconds later I’d run in again and give you one last big hug

Little did I know then that it really was the last

I’d give anything for just one more hug

I couldn’t imagine my life without you

And I still can’t…

No wait…I stopped living long time ago

Has it been three years?!

Has it been that long?!

Actuality it has

Unbelievable how time flies by

Did it really fly by?

Or is it me who stood still

All I know is that it’s dead

Beneath the tough facet there’s a tender heart

Big part of it is dead… dead

Once lively and hopeful

Thinking about it makes my heart sink

My life is never the same again

I loved you more than life itself

You’re always in my heart… on my mind

No heart…no love is greater than yours

No warmth has ever touched my heart as yours

No caring and tenderness could ever compare to yours

Your love is indescribable

I know I can’t see you

I know I can’t touch you

But you’re living within me still

No matter what they say I know you’re alive

I know you’re here

You’re in my heart and always will be

If this is denial then denial is my world

If it’s where you are then it’s all I live for

I don’t want to think

I don’t want to realize

They’d ask…

Would you grieve someone alive?

I would because….

All I feel is that I Miss You

I love you

P.S. Never take the love of those around for granted…you may never know when they’ll be gone…it could be in a blink of an eye…so if you never told them that you love them…there’s no time like the present………(showing it is something but saying it is something else- it could mean the world to them).

My Dommiez Book - Tagged by SpikeyQ8

2006-11-17T19:29:00.000+03:00

Ready for some fun self-discovery?

2006-11-11T23:57:00.000+03:00

One of my favourite websites is www.tickle.com which can engage you for hours...

If you're still wondering what tickle is all about, here...
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so come on tickle your senses...

P.S. bs tra you must tell me which tests you took and the results ;p

Giving a helping hand

2006-11-08T11:08:00.000+03:00

I've always wanted to volunteer or do community services to help the less privileged or the sick but never had the chance to due to studying and being away from home...

Now that I'm back I would really love to begin BUT it proved to be not that easy!

such organizations here in Kuwait don't have websites (the only one I found and supposed to have all the links wasn't updated since 2003!!!) and they don't publish coming events or even seek volunteers making it hard to find them or know what's required...

Any idea on how to start?

You're welcome to share any activities/experiences you had of volunteering or any thoughts on the subject :)

Some times ALL you need is Sweet Nothingness

2006-11-07T10:58:00.000+03:00

Ever felt so distant from reality.. Yet badly craving its sweet nothingness

Ever daydreamed of such sweetness.. That reality seemed a distant memory

Ever wondered if it's to be felt.. A blissful reality it would be no end?