Grieving is Missing You

I never knew what grieving was until I lost you

Losing you was losing my life

Then…I never knew you were gone

But you said farewell in your own way

Waking up I knew you weren’t alright

I felt it deep down in my heart

Something’s wrong…

Suddenly…missing you was overwhelming

Could it be?!.... Will it ever?!

Oh silly me of course not…

Saying it with tearful eyes

You and death will never get along

I always thought so

I knew eternity is only to Allah

But of all creatures I saw you differently

I didn’t want to believe

I just don’t want to believes

They told me… it was true *a lump forms in my throat*

No! Liars…liars

And they still are

I’m hearing nothing about it

And never will

I knew there was something wrong *crying*

That night I was alone… I lived alone

But that night was different

It felt lonely…I felt abandoned

Forlorn spirit is all I can feel

Life was a dreary path

I lived in tears…slept in tears…woke up in tears

My surrounds seemed desolated

I felt alone in the world

Wandering crowded places felt empty…lonely

I feel like the walking-dead

I feel that I’ve lost my soul

Numb in all that I had to do

Then back to where I want to be

Curled on the sofa… staring into space

Hugging your picture to my heart

Sobbing like a four-year- old

I’d cry my heart out

Trying to remember your last words

As usual…before I travel I’d hug you

I’d feel the lump and choke

I’d struggle not to cry

I’d fight my tears back

But I’d get tearful

I’d see your tears

And my tears would drip

I try to distract you with a big smile

I’d promise to call when I arrive

I’d ask you to take care

*But had I ever told you that I love you?*

I’d go out the door after peeking a couple last glances

Then seconds later I’d run in again and give you one last big hug

Little did I know then that it really was the last

I’d give anything for just one more hug

I couldn’t imagine my life without you

And I still can’t…

No wait…I stopped living long time ago

Has it been three years?!

Has it been that long?!

Actuality it has

Unbelievable how time flies by

Did it really fly by?

Or is it me who stood still

All I know is that it’s dead

Beneath the tough facet there’s a tender heart

Big part of it is dead… dead

Once lively and hopeful

Thinking about it makes my heart sink

My life is never the same again

I loved you more than life itself

You’re always in my heart… on my mind

No heart…no love is greater than yours

No warmth has ever touched my heart as yours

No caring and tenderness could ever compare to yours

Your love is indescribable

I know I can’t see you

I know I can’t touch you

But you’re living within me still

No matter what they say I know you’re alive

I know you’re here

You’re in my heart and always will be

If this is denial then denial is my world

If it’s where you are then it’s all I live for

I don’t want to think

I don’t want to realize

They’d ask…

Would you grieve someone alive?

I would because….

All I feel is that I Miss You

I love you


P.S. Never take the love of those around for granted…you may never know when they’ll be gone…it could be in a blink of an eye…so if you never told them that you love them…there’s no time like the present………(showing it is something but saying it is something else- it could mean the world to them).